Peaceful Decisions

Okay ya so I have had a rough week since Sunday. Not with my children at all, they have been so great. Helping me around the house, loving each other, and many laughs with Lego building. The boys had a drama musical Wednesday night. May I say all those kiddos did a great job!

Gabriela has been a jewel, she has been helping set the table and she insists on feeding the cats. She will fill the bowl to the top... but after she is asleep I will go in and take some of the food out so she will think they ate it all in the night. HAHA!

Love my children dearly! I have made a dress and quite a few bows this week, must say I am really happy about that. Maybe it has been all this rain we are having. God must have a mighty big plan with all this rain, but then again ALL of Gods plans are MIGHTY and BIG.

My rough week has been due to a lost friend, she did not died but it sure feels like it. There were some unfortunate circumstances that were beyond our control. We had a great supper after church on Sunday, the kiddos played (for the last time), I got to make a wonderful little girl laugh (for the last time) the boys and Sissy ate ice cream with their friends (for the last time). We talked everything out we vowed to not let this get in the way of our friendship, I knew it would be hard at times. I looked at her one last time as we turned to get in our vehicles, and she said, "We're good right?" and I said, "For life!" Leaving with a hug and a see ya later, we left.
A couple texts exchanged that night and it was done!!!!
All the laughs, the children playing, the rainy play days, the many meals together, the great talks, the Mother's day shared due to our husbands being far away. All of it flashed before my teary eyes.
Okay maybe I had more of a friend in her than she had in me?!?! Maybe I care a little to much about people that I put close to my heart?!?! I only hold a few people dear to me and she was and is one of them!!! I dont get easily heart broken about anything, but this YES BY GOODNESS I AM!!! Almost to the point of being mad. Was all my time wasted? Was all my care and love in a Godly sister lost? Was this friendship good for nothing? NO!!!! I dont believe so! Its like we were blood sisters and we finally met at almost 30, and bonded greatly, then torn apart again. You know what though, weather she realizes it we, have someone bigger than us all, bigger and greater than any situation and that is GOD!!!!
My prayer is simple I can almost sum it up in one word and that word is....
*HOPE*

I will strive to live like Jesus! Will I stumble sure I will, the Bible tells me I will, but you know what, I will get on my knees and I will pray. I give it all to Jesus... I will do it to glorify God!
I WILL be that person that when my feet hit the floor and I kneel at the throne of Jesus in the morning the devil will say, "OH NO SHES AWAKE"